How to Surrender: Do or Be?
Surrender. The word sounds so easy, yet so complicated. The S rolls off the tongue and you believe YES I can do this. In Lessons from a Year of Letting Go I discuss that 2015 was a shedding, like a snake who sheds it skin so it can grow. I was shedding my existence so I could grow spiritually, mentally, emotionally. The message that kept coming to me was stop CONTROLLING.
LET GO. SURRENDER.
So I did. Or so I THOUGHT.
I let go of possessions, relationships, ideas and unhealthy habits BUT that was NOT enough. Still I would hear a whisper a call from deep in my soul- have FAITH and SURRENDER.
WTF! Haven’t I done enough already. I would ask as I rushed from task to task, forcing, controlling, MAKING it happen.
I was in the space of DOING. The more I DO, the more success I will have….RIGHT? and yes I was seeing increasing success and yet still hiring the WRONG people to support me and not understanding that to RECEIVE I must ALLOW not DO. What was this Surrender and Faith thing?
I was not listening to MY Intuitive Intelligence when I would get a SIGN that something was amiss or wrong. I wanted SO bad to be successful that I missed the signs of HOW to be successful in LIFE. Then I would BELIEVE when I was told you are creating DISORDER and CHAOS that it was ME that was wrong. Almost felt like a narcissist had been brought into my fold. I would then question myself. Do you question yourself? Then I would DO more to make it happen and happen it did.
Doing will get you somewhere BUT it may not always be WHERE you want to go. The path may not lead to where you thought or where you are meant to go but it will lead you somewhere. It is the JOURNEY not the DESTINATION right? So why was I so determined to have a destination?
I recently “moved” to Chicago it was part of my year of letting go. I actually only spent about 25 days there over a 3 month period of time. I kept saying I don’t know where I want to live when I grow up. In the time that I was making this “move” I spent time in North Carolina with my clients for a deeply transformative retreat in the mountains, I spent time in Florida packing and letting go, I went to Phoenix to be among my tribe and connect and I masterminded with brave amazing women in Sedona. I went to Atlanta and Ohio to visit family for the holidays. Whew. A lot of places in a span of 3 months! As with all my travel and journeys in the last year I felt like I never knew where I was going.
I am a nomad on a journey to finding my soul.
I have come to accept the feeling of not knowing where I am going. And I have trained myself to love it. Because it is only when we are suspended in mid-air with no landing in sight, that we force our wings to unravel and alas begin our flight. And as we fly, we still may not know where we are going to . But the miracle is in the unfolding of the wings. You may not know where you’re going, but you know that so long as you spread your wings, the winds will carry you. – C. Joybell C.
I have surrendered. I am learning to BE.
Since surrendering and allowing my life has become this magical journey and I can’t wait to share with you the beautiful things that are manifesting. I will be sharing about the METAMORPHOSIS that I have surrendered to and share with you the steps that are leading me to having the most EXTRAVAGANT and BLESSED year yet!
Is it time for you to SHOW UP for YOURSELF? Do you know HOW? What are you surrendering to? Please leave your comments below.